Rules 2.2

•  you will greet me properly in a kneeling position
•  Take my purse and jacket
•  Take off my shoes and socks, worship my feet
•  Offer me your cuffs to put on you
• Offer me your leash
• Always make me a drink 
• anything served you will not look at me

• you will assist Me with cooking dinner if I request your help
• When I tell you that I want a bath, you will make sure my bed clothes are laid out, get a towel and start my bath water
• My clothes shall be laid out the night before
• My cell phone shall be plugged in the charger every night
• If I request my cock, you will bring everything that goes along with it
• If I tell you diaper, you will bring everything that goes along with it

• your blog times will be increased to four times per week
• you will fold up the bedding each morning and make sure toys and other items are put away
• you will empty the garbage cans
• you will be in charge of the laundry (ours and towels)
• you will always make sure the dishes are done
• you will always take basset out especially when I tell you to
• you will keep your body shaven at all times
• you will remain on food restrictions and eat what is given to you
• you will serve me my food first and watch me eat before requesting your own
• you will only be allowed to drink what I approve of (This can change at my whim)
• you will always keep your pussy filled unless it is healing
• you will always clean toys with your mouth first before washing them
• your clit will remain in chastity unless it is healing
• you will always ask permission to be excused when in my presence and give the reason why

• your hands will be behind your back when fetching things if Rachel is here
• When Rachel is not here you will continue to crawl when fetching or excusing yourself
• you will be allowed only the articles of clothing to wear that have been purchsed for you 
• When you are leashed you will always hold it in your mouth if I am not holding it
• you will wear a leash when sleeping in bed
• you will ask to use your laptop in my presence
• Always get any door for me
• Carry my purse when out in public
• You will always carry a hair tie and lighter on your person. 
• you are not allowed on any furniture at home without permission
• Eye restrictions when kneeling 
• you wil wear a tampon when I am on my period
• you will always give financial control over to me
• you will provide pleasure to others when I see fit
• you will always ask permission to play video games. 

I truly believe a slave should not be allowed to cum it changes them it makes them not their selves. When a man cums that is usally when a session ends and the same goes for a slave they loose track of what is really important in their lives..serving. I do not like to cum because I do not like the way it makes me think or act, I dislike the person I become when I think with my penis like a normal man. It was said upfront when I served Miss Carrie that sex was not on my priority list and chastity was and that I was to be her cuckold. The idea behind this was that if she wanted sex she would seek it out with other people so that I may be humbled and given another outlet to show my devotion. However this was never the case she is worried about STDs and wants to be safe but doesnt want to use condoms so its quite a pickle. So there is nothing I really can do about that but, I know its not what she wants and I have to accept that but as of late I am not sure what anyone wants anymore its just a very stressful situation and I am finally breaking down and comeing back to reality.

Smoking

Smoking is a very important fetish in our lives when Mistress reaches for a cigarette I quickly follow to light it. Then humbly hang my head an await her ashes and finally she tells me to present and she puts the cigarette out on my tongue and I hold the cigarette butt in my mouth. Protecting it from the dangers of my mouth by resting it on my tongue like a child hiding from monsters under the bed. When Mistress is relaxing at home with a smoke we both become very different people she becomes very mean and assertive I become very docile. This is a bond we share that is unlike any I have ever seen it truly shows how natural my submission to her is. Since Mistress Carrie can no longer smoke in the house due to out living situation people in the house are allergic she hasnt been smoking as much. But last night for the first time in nearly a month Mistress was able to smoke in the house. As soon as I crawled to her with her Marlboro Menthol light 100s in my mouth she snatched them and when I lit her cigarette we both could feel this blanket of comfort and relief. Mistress Carrie said when she put the cigarette out in her ashtray she went numb and limp as if she was in subspace. This is a testament to how powerful this bond is, and how special it is to us. I love everything about this fetish I love the way Mistress acts when she smokes, I love when she throw the pack at me when she wants one. I love letting the butts pile up in my mouth and having to swallow or spit out a nasty film of wet ashes. I love having to perform my daily duties with my mouth full. I love the way her cigarette looks in her hand and wrapped around her lips. I love watching ther smoke exhale toward my low hung head. I love not having the honor to watch her as she smoke and being lucky enough to catch a glimpse of her cigarette clad hand every now and then. Mistress is wearing make up alot more then she used to, she says it makes her feel more dominate and I love that ! She looks amazing in her bright red lipstick and eye shadow, simple things like make up really can make. Someone feel different and I think she should do what ever it takes to continue the amazing hold she has on me. When she has the lipstick on it leaves these wonderful lipstick stains on her cigarette butts that are like a special little treat for me. Strange how things like make up and smoking can really bring out the Domina in my Mistress. She once said something like "strand how a few cigarette butts can bring out the peice of shit faggot that you are" I guess this works both ways <3.

Dr. Jerk

I always have so much to write about in the back of my mind but when I go to write I feel like I waited to long and have forgotten all the things that were on my mind. This is the only outlet I has because as a slave I have trouble expressing myself to my owner verbally so I am lucky enough to have this journal. Mistress is getting a cat scan today to see if there is anything seriously wrong with her and to be honest it scares me to death. I do not trust doctors and I feel like they do unnecessary things just to scare you into spending money. I pushed this to the back of my mind until the very last second when she was leaving and I was kneeling hugging her leg realizing that she is going to the hospital to get the same thing they use to scan for cancer and other serious things. I hope there is nothing wrong with her, I dont know how I would live with out her. I dont want anything to be wrong with her but if anything ever was she is my best friend and I will take care of her always. Mistress Carrie has alot of strength and in her mind nothing is wrong and these doctors are just wasting her time and I admire that but it still scares me just the thought of hospitals, I hate it. Thinking of them putting the one thing I care about more than any thing in some machine. to check for some mystery problem. I feel like they just make stuff up as they go along. They cant function with out your money so they will run you around doing all sorts of stuff just to do it when in fact nothing is wrong at all. At least I truly hope this is the case because I worship and adore my Mistress she is the most important thing to me and will always be.

929-007-811

all I am is a number I wouldn't have it another way. Makes me feel like a prisoner in the service of my owner Mistress Carrie. <3 We got this number for a slave tattoo project we will be doing.

little tykes

My love for my Mistress is borderline obsessive, I think about her all of the time. Every action I made I think how it will effect her. Everything she does I notice, I pick everything apart and analyze it and it makes me love her that much more.That pink bear is Miss Carries bear it represents her slave we share the same key lock marking. Since I told her what the bear represents she will not let it go, I love seeing her hold her to her ashe bear. Its like I can feel her love even through the bear. Mistress and I are both littles even when she is little I still will always know my place as her slave after all she is older :) Its really fun to play and see that soft side of her I adore watching her with her paci and sippy cup while she caresses my diapered bottom and we both cuddle our bears.
We have been taking more photos lately with I love for some reason I am not very photogenic in fact normally I hate photos being taken of me. But I cant take enough with I am with my Mistress its like I feel like the photos will reflect my true self and I can look back at it and be proud of who I am. When I look at a normal photo of me I look awkward and unhappy but when I look at photos of  me that my owner takes I look comfortable and at peace.

satisfaction

I have been trying so very hard to serve Mistress Carrie with such passion, showing her what a dedicated slave I can be. No matter what the situation maybe I carry on with my submission. I want to show her that I play on serving her forever and that nothing will stop my desire to be her slave. We finally got to play a bit this weekend ...it was much needed I loved to feel her burn my flesh as she branded me what I am, a faggot. I loved being her puppy barking, eating bones and playing fetch. I loved when she caned me until I could take no more welting my body so much I could feel the skin raise. But most of all I loved casually watching her rip cloths pins of my useless balls with a wicked grin as she told me she wanted to cute them off because they served no purpose. Also we got to fuck for the first time in a long time and Mistress's new big black cock slipped in with ease I lay there in exactly while she pounded my sissy pussy. Miss Carrie slept with her cock on and the next morning I got the pleasure of being fucked again by my owner!All of these little things makes remaining fully subservient through thick and thin completely worth it.
I find that if I refer to Mistress properly such as "Mistress Carrie" or "Miss Carrie" it tends to command more respect and helps me stay in my place. I just like that way it comes off my tounge for some reason. I was thinking that my owner never gets tired of hearing me respect her she never gets tired of hearing her tittle come off my lips. I think I say Mistress or miss at least 100 times a day and she never seems to get tired of it. She is usually on her game and understands and accepts her role very well, Mistress always refers to me as my slave name and make sure I know how far beneath her I am.
I get such a sense of satisfaction hearing Mistress tell me she is proud of me or pleased or impressed with my performance as her slave. Because I know I will never be good enough for her but I will still try very hard for her. When she tell me these things it just makes me want to push harder to please and amuse her to show her what a good well trained slave I am. My hopes are the I will try so hard every single day that these will no longer become just roles it will become nature. Mistress treating me like the shit that I am while I remain a devoted served for the rest of my life.