serving ones own passions is the great slavery

It hard to imagine being as happy as I am, when shes around all i do is think about whats coming next as I take a deep breath i fall deeper into submission. There is nothing like the feeling of not knowing and having no control. She is always there I have no privacy no secrets no anything it is all hers. It sounds harsh but this is the most comforting feeling I have ever known. Its for this reason when she is not around I feel lost, I am like a lonley puppy just waiting never knowing how much time has passed. Though she has complete control when away I still feel that since of need to be at her feet because that is when I feel I am at my best.